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solitude and independence for a free mind. We die We seem to be winning and losing, but in reality there
Nothing that happens in your life makes inspiration We can see the process and recognize suffering as the is no
When your eyes are open defeat of losing
You see beauty in anything ego by the process of destiny the wiggle of a worm as important as the assassination
Blake's right about there's no difference between the We can relinquish pride, conquest, remorse and of a president
whole thing resolution I want to talk to you about 'The work', art work
and one thing inevitably as destiny unfolds I will speak of inspiration, the studio viewing art work,
freedom from suffering cradled on the mountain I can rest friends
suffering is necessary for freedom from suffering Solitude and freedom are the same of art and artists' temperament.
first you have to find out about what you're suffering under every fallen leaf. But your interest and mind is really 'the work' —
from. Others do not really exist in solitude. I do not exist works of art
My painting is about impotence not thinking of others when they are there; no Art work is very important in the way that I will try to
We are ineffectual by ourselves interruption show when I speak about inspiration.
In a big picture a blade of grass amounts to not very a mystic and a solitary person are the same I have sometimes put myself ahead of my work in my
much night, shelterless, wandering mind and
worries fall off you when you can believe that I, like the deer, looked have suffered in consequence.
pride is in abeyance when you think that. finding less and less I thought me, me; and I suffered
One thing I've got a good grip on is remorse living is grazing I thought I was important. I was taught to think that.
The whole wave memory is chewing cud I was
It applies to life the wave wandering away from everything taught 'You are important; people are important
As it was in the beginning, to where there was no giving up everything beyond anything else.'
division not me anymore, any of it But thinking that I suffered very much
and no separation retired ego, wandering I thought that I was big and 'the work' was small. It is
don't look at the stars. Then your mind goes freely — on the mountain; nor more not
way, way conquests; no longer an enemy to anyone possible to go on that way (to think I am big is the
beyond ego retired, wandering work is big)
look between the rain no longer a friend, master, slave; all the opposites the position of pride is not possible either
the drops are insular dead to and to think I am small and the work is small, the
try to remember before you were born the world and himself unresponsible position of
this conqueror will fight with you perhaps I can now really enjoy sailing modesty, is not possible.
If there's no one else around. adventure in the dark I will go on to inspiration and perhaps you will see
I am constantly tempted to think that I can help save very exciting what is
myself beast seems to be stretched out dead. possible.
by looking into my mind I can see what's there He is very mild. As I describe inspiration I do not want you to think
by bringing thoughts to the surface of my mind I can I will not be seeking adventure but it might happen I I am
watch suppose speaking of religion.
them dissolve Inspired action is destiny What takes us by surprise is moments of happiness.
I can see my ego and see its intentions our feet are in the paths of righteousness Inspiration
I can see that it is the same as all nature the paths that our feet take are marked which is different from daily care.
I can see that it is myself and impotent As the river runs to the sea Many people as adults are so startled by inspiration
like all nature; impotent in the process of dissolution and the plant grows to the sun which is
of ego, of itself. I can see that its main intention is the So do we flow and grow and exist different from daily care that they think they are
conquest and destruction of ego, of self; and can only ecstasy playing with Sylphides angels unique
go back As long as I look in my mind and see nothing at all in having had it. Nothing could be further from the
and forth in constant battle with itself, repeating itself. The Sylphides have the beast captured and are truth
It would be an endless battle if it were all up to ego grooming him Inspiration is there all the time
because it does not destroy and is not destroyed by very pleasant sun, that is what destiny is like for everyone whose mind is not clouded over with
itself It is like grooming thoughts
It is like a wave The idea — the sudden realization of the destruction of whether they realize it or not
it makes itself up; it rushes forward getting nowhere innocence by Most people have no realization whatever of the
really ego. moments in
It crashes, withdraws and makes itself up again In solitude there is consolation which they are inspired.
pulls itself together with pride thinking of others and myself, even plants, I am
towers with pride immediately apprehensive Inspiration is pervasive but not a power
rushes forward into imaginary conquest because my solitude has been interrupted It's a peaceful thing
crashes in frustration solitude, inspiration It is a consolation even to plants and animals
withdraws with remorse and repentance down pride mountain Do not think that it is unique
pulls itself together with new resolution I am nothing absolutely If it were unique no one would be able to respond to
individually and collectively the same There is this other thing going on your work
children trained in pride and patriotism the purification of reality Do not think it is reserved for a few or anything like
towering in national spirit that is all that is happening that
charging in conquest all that happens is that process; It is an untroubled mind.
Victory and defeat and frustration not nature; the dissolution of nature Of course we know that an untroubled state of mind
withdrawing and repentance the error is in thinking we have cannot last so we say that Inspiration comes and goes
then once more pride a part to play in the process but really it is there all the time waiting for us to be
the wheel of life As long as we think we are in resistance untroubled again. We can therefore say that it is
pride I can see that I have nothing to do with the process pervasive.
conquest It is very pleasant Young children are more untroubled than adults and
Victory defeat frustration The all of all, reality, mind have
remorse repentance the process of destiny many more inspirations. All the moments of
resolution like the ocean full to the brim inspiration
pride like a dignified journey with no trouble and no goal on added together make what we call sensibility. The
More people at an earlier age see the conqueror in and on development
themselves Solitude of sensibility is the most important thing for children
then see the way out in another process, the real other than nature and adults but is much more possible in children. In
defeat of smiling adults it would be more accurate to say that the
ego in which have no part Everyone is chosen and everyone knows it awakening
The dissolution of ego in reality as it was in the including animals and plants to their sensibility is the most important thing. Some
beginning There is only the all of the all parents put the development of social mores ahead of
as it was before we were separate and insular everything is that aesthetic development. Small children are taken to the
the process we call destiny every infinitesimal thought and action is part and park for social play; sent to nursery school and
in which we are the material to be dissolved parcel of headstart. But the little child sitting alone, perhaps
We eat a wonderful victory even neglected and forgotten, is the one open to
We procreate `freedom on the mountain a glimpse of victory' inspiration and the development of sensibility. q

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